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It's not fair to say I came to NZ because I liked it. I never aim for a life that relying on welfare or housing bubble rather than innovative hard-work, I even don't agree on the idea universal medicare (just like those in the US against Obamacare).
Meanwhile I couldn't accept the live in China, not for financial reason, but lack of freedom, and to a lesser extent, I like to use the universal language in science/tech as my main language in life. So eventually I gave up the plan of migrating to Japan but a English-speaking state.
Well, the fact is I had no choice, ineligible to the US, having passed the age to pursue the phD in Science, otherwise it's very hard to get a job in the US without work permit, let alone the green card, for a bachelor degree holder.
I was mentally suffering a lot when in China, I hated that regime which deprived my right to access Internet as well as overseas medium, keeping brainwashing people with its nationalism ideology to keep Chinese people in an isolated space culturally and mentally. I once swore, if I failed to move out of China, I would prefer suicide - a death with dignity rather than the life as a slave under the communist. I was fearful, being cautious when talking about anything in public or online, knowing not few were arrested due to their comments online.
However I realized a lot after I came to NZ as a resident, which is the taught of Zen. I no longer feel it's necessary to live under pressure even if still in China - no need to fear, even the communist, chairman Xi caught and beheaded me, it's OK. Sooner or later I would die, from a rational point of view, no need to hate anyone murdering me. Though in reality I may never happen since I no longer go back to China, I would die of any other reason anytime, so what's the difference?
Once you realize even death is not a issue you try to avoid, I don't think you have anything to worry about. That's the true happiness. |
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楼主: DDD888
发表于 18-6-2016 21:25:16
